legal tender to a flame
Dec. 1st, 2025 10:04 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
heavvymoonhi again. this is the only place i can freely ramble, so im sorry if it gets boring.
the only thing i can feel is this revolting sinking in my gut like something bad is about to happen or that maybe im being paranoid. maybe its just me, but i dont think i was made with a purpose include. everyone else, sure. but i dont think I was. i know i wasnt. im simply mediocre, and everything I want to do is taken away from me, for example, my band, where its not even they wont meet up. but why am i complaining? i know the truth. they merley just have a put together life. i do too, but in the horribly mundane way. it's like it's all some sort of loop. on and on. on and on. each day is like a little side quest. i hope one day ill get to be something or someone bigger than what i am now. or dead. both work.
sorry for yapping your head off. but at the same time you read this, so it's not my fault. love you lots.
xo.
the only thing i can feel is this revolting sinking in my gut like something bad is about to happen or that maybe im being paranoid. maybe its just me, but i dont think i was made with a purpose include. everyone else, sure. but i dont think I was. i know i wasnt. im simply mediocre, and everything I want to do is taken away from me, for example, my band, where its not even they wont meet up. but why am i complaining? i know the truth. they merley just have a put together life. i do too, but in the horribly mundane way. it's like it's all some sort of loop. on and on. on and on. each day is like a little side quest. i hope one day ill get to be something or someone bigger than what i am now. or dead. both work.
sorry for yapping your head off. but at the same time you read this, so it's not my fault. love you lots.
xo.
